If We're Being Honest

Have you got something on your mind that you've been holding in? Have you done some things this past week that you're not exactly proud of? Maybe, you've done some things you are proud of. Well, let it all out - and join me in True Confessions Tuesday!!
 
I confess...I really enjoyed the three day weekend, but it made it 10 times harder for me to want to go to work today.
 
I confess...I was extremely grateful that I got to leave work early today for a kids speech appointment today, however I will probably hate it tomorrow when I have to work later.
 
I confess...I hate getting home from work and having to decide what to make for supper/dinner.
 
I confess...that more than I hate having to decide what to make for supper, I hate cleaning up after supper.
 
I confess...that although my five year old is extremely excited about going to school for an open house tonight, I myself am not looking forward to it. I am excited that she is excited about showing off her school to her dad (I get to see her classroom twice a week when I am at school picking up her brother), but could really care less about getting the tour of what I have already seen while fighting with two little boys who could care less that we are supposed to behave in public, although I am sure her excitement will make it worth it.
 
I confess...that I do miss my kids greatly during the day while I'm at work, but sometimes at night I dream of dosing everyone with Nyquil so they will go to bed early and  I could just have peace and quiet for a little while.
 
I confess....that I am beginning to feel like a failure when it comes to weight loss. Last year this time I was doing so great, and it didn't even feel like it took work or effort to be healthy and this year I feel like no matter what I do I can't get myself back on track. I will have a great day and then a not so great day. I am tired of the roller coaster ride. I do not hate the weight I am at now, however I do want to lose more weight.
 
I confess....that my husband is probably tired of me talking about losing weight and then eating cookie dough or drinking soda instead of actually following through with what I say I'm going to do. He has never once said anything to me about my weight, but I know that he probably gets frustrated with me being so wishy washy over what I say I want and what I do. Why am I like that?
 
I confess....that I could probably go on forever with confessions, but I guess I'll save some for next week!
 
I hope everyone has a great week and thanks for listening!!
 

Cruise Control

Sorry for the hiatus from blogging, but this summer was super crazy and I didn’t take the time to post. Don’t write me off as a lost cause just yet, I have still been reading blogs and thinking about posts, it’s just a matter of getting them in writing. So, I am apologizing up front.

When it comes to weight loss, I have been on cruise control for the past several months, oh let’s be honest… since the beginning of summer. The good news, I have stayed within a couple of pounds of where I was in April all summer long. The bad news is that I have let myself get too comfortable at this weight. I know I still have more to lose and can tell when I am not eating healthy. My body just doesn’t feel as good. My moods fluctuate and I feel out of control.

Now that school is back in session and things are more routine around the homestead, I hope to get myself back on track also. I need to focus on my portion control. I have been eating foods that are better for me the last several months, but not entirely and not really listening to my body, acting more on my wants. This has to stop. I also need to focus on exercise. Sadly, I have not done any exercise all summer long (unless you count chasing after my kids….you would think that would yield greater results for as much as I feel I do it, but I guess not!). So it’s time to step it up! For the next 30 days I am going to watch what I eat (more closely than I have been) and work out (at least 4 days a week, hopefully more).

Hopefully with these two things combined I will be able to get myself out of this weight loss slump (if you can call it a slump, when really it was just me being lazy). I am ready to start moving and again and seeing some results! We have no set plans for Labor Day Weekend, so I hope this will be my time to get organized and get back in control! I want to feel good about myself again!

Random thoughts

Today was the start of another busy week for us. Spring weather has finally arrived and farming is in full swing. Blake had his 18 month check-up today and just as expected, he is doing great! He is in the 83rd percentile of his weight and the 68th percentile of his height, which is pretty common for my kids. All of them have been larger than the average kids their ages.

Blake has been talking more and more lately, but he is still holding out on Dad. He won't say it. I don't think it is a matter of him not being able to say it as much as it is that he just refuses to say it. If his dad asks him to say 'Da', he looks at him and says Ma. I personally find it hilarious at times, but I do wish he would say it for his dad.

I hope to get time this week to plant my garden. I have tomato plants, peppers, lettuce, sweet corn, green beans and peas. This will be my first experience as a gardener, so we will see how it goes. I just hope I get the chance to enjoy some of the fresh veggies, not only would they taste great, but also it would help out the grocery bill. Hopefully this will make it easier to keep my veggie intake up.

Bed time is my least favorite time of the day. I love spending time with my kids and would do almost anything to avoid putting kids to bed. No one wants to see the fun of day time end and why do I have to be the one to make it happen. Its not easy trying to get everyone to settle down for the night, especiallly this time of year when the weather is great and its light out longer. I love weekends when I don't have to enforce an early bedtime!