Struggles

I know it's been almost a month since my last post, sorry to fall so far behind. I have been struggling to keep myself afloat lately (almost literally because we have had almost 8 inches of rain in the last 2 weeks, 11 inches total for the month of April).

The month of April has been a weight loss roller coaster for me. I have been down and up and up and down. After Easter I am expecting to be up again since the Easter Bunny was so nice to have left so much candy that just happens to sit out on the counter within arms reach every time you pass. (I know this is my own fault, I just need to put the candy away, but have yet to do so). I just don't understand why I am struggling so much when I get to a certain number. I have hit this number at least 3 times already and every time after I feel great. I think of how awesome it will be to lose that last 10 lbs and finally hit my goal and I am very pumped up.

Then the following week for some reason I lose control. I don't know why I do that to myself or what is going on, but shortly afterwards I start to gain and the roller coaster ride begins again. I am not quite sure how many times a person can lose the same 5 lbs. over and over, but at this rate I feel like I will be setting a record. Why can I not find the strength to keep going after hit that # and why would I want to self sabotage? This week I have not made wise choices (some purposefully, even though I know I shouldn't) and I can really tell. I have had such a harder time getting out of bed in the morning and getting myself motivated to move. I have had zero desire to exercise (which isn't a huge change), but before even when I didn't feel like it I could at least make myself do SOMETHING and would feel better afterwards. Not this week. This week I have exercised none and ate poorly and I can feel it. I know I feel 100% better when I eat healthy, so why don't I just DO IT!

I could blame our hectic schedule, running back and forth all week for meetings, tumbling, speech and what not. I could blame the rain because that means I can't get outside and exercise where I like to. Or I could blame the holiday because I had 3 big meals to attend and candy everywhere I would turn. But in reality the only thing to blame is myself! I make the choices and decide what I do or don't do and what I eat or don't eat and lately I have been letting myself go unaccountable. My goal for myself this week is to be accountable for my actions. Maybe that will help me get back on track or at least get that 5 lbs off one more time! :)

Motivation Station

I am having a hard time focusing on my weight loss lately. I am doing ok with my meals (especially breakfast and lunch), however I find myself doing a lot more snacking and not making healthy choices. I tend to linger in the kitchen or sneak back in and look through the pantry. Then I tend to put things in my mouth, things that I don't need, but for some reason feel the need to taste.

So, in order to help myself out I am going to set up a Motivation Station. I have designated an area in my kitchen (i.e. a bulletin board) where I have posted pictures. Pictures of what I looked like before I started to lose weight, a picture of a picture of how far I have come, a list of things I am going to do other than raid the cabinets and list of why I feel so much better about myself now that I have lost some weight. My hopes are that this station will help me curb my snacking desires and instead make better food choices.

My next goal is to incorporate some exercise. I have been terrible lately about coming up with excuses not to exercise. The biggest one being that I am just too tired at night, by the time I get home from work, make supper and get everyone cleaned up, I feel like I just don't have enough energy left to exercise. Which in reality is a terrible excuse because if I would just start exercising I would probably start having more energy. I know that I need the exercise. Not only will it help with my weight loss, but it will also tighten and tone me. I have lost enough weight that it is noticeable now, however I am not losing it in the areas that I would like to, so I think if I would make myself start to exercise I could concentrate on certain areas and hopefully see better results.

So, here's to trying the Motivation Station! Hopefully it will help me out, I can use all the help I can get!

ABC's

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I'm copying this from Colleen at Goodbye Fat Girl (which you should read, by the way). Not only is she 100% real about life and its ups and downs, but she is funny too. So go ahead...take a peak!



ABC's of ME

Age: 29

Bed size: King

Chore you hate: Laundry

Dogs: Fine as long as they aren't mine.

Essential start of your day: Shower

Fave color: Green

Gold or silver: Silver

Height: 5'6''

Instruments I play: In grade school I played the clarinet (if you could call it play)
Job title: Construction Coordinator

Live: in the country

Mom’s name: Kristy

Nicknames: Steph, no others that I know of
Overnight hospital stays: 3 - for the birth of my chidlren

Pet peeve: Ignorance

Quote from a movie: "Don't say that. She's a nice lady."

Right or left handed: Right.

Siblings: 2 younger brothers

Time you wake up: Define wake up, the alarm goes off at 5am, but usually takes a few snoozes before I am out of bed.

Underwear: Yes

Veg you dislike: I don't mind vegetables, just depends on how they are made

What makes you run late: I blame it on my children, but really it's usually my fault for underestimating the amount of time it takes to get us some place.

X-rays you have had done: ankle, teeth

Yummy food you make: Homemade pizza

Zoo Animal, favorite: Hippo (I love it when they swim in the water)